36 weeks and 2 days today.
Honestly, I’m so ready for this baby to be born already! The excitement mixed with the pure exhaustion of being 9 months pregnant, is really setting in. I’m getting a little stir crazy up in here. Rearranging, organizing, re-rearranging, re-organizing. I just want to hold her and get this ball rolling. Maybe I’m just impatient, but you’d be lying if you said you didn’t feel this at some point in your pregnancy(ies).
Beside the hardly ever sleeping, I’m feeling great. Yes, I’m tired and waddling around is getting old. But I’m really trying to keep humble and positive.
I FINALLY got HypnoBirthing The Mongan Method from my library. I had been waiting for weeks! And let me tell you what, It’s an AMAZING book. Even if you aren’t Hypnobirthing, it’s fantastic to read during pregnancy. I could write a whole post on the book…(maybe I will later). Anyway, it’s really helping prepare my mind for birth and comfort me while I wait. It’s nice to be in a positive mindset at this point in time.
Tomorrow is my weekly check up and I’m planning on presenting my doctor with my birth plan. I am a little nervous, but it’s very important for me to make known what I’m hoping for and at the same time, let her see that I have made an effort to be knowledgeable about labor and birth and my options, and that I have every intention to be making the decisions. After basically taking the backseat during my first labor and birth experience, there is no way I will allow that this time. I know most of that was because of the nurses at that certain hospital, but having this birth plan will show them I mean business and wont be pushed around.
I’m feeling very confident at this point and, thanks to Hypnobirthing, not afraid. Fear tends to hijack our pregnancies, labors and birth experiences. I’m so glad I found Hypnobirthing and had my mind opened to how ridiculous it really is. I’m taking back my birth experience and it’s going to be awesome!!
I’m excited, can’t you tell?
Rayne decided to pull out her ‘Under The Sea’ pop-up book.
She wanted to do the reading.
There wasn’t a lot of reading though. It was more of a ‘look at pictures and try to pull off the pop-ups’.
This is what I consider a great day. Sun is shining, Rayne is playing, and I get to relax with a book.
Of course it didn’t last very long. Rayne wanted to go to my Grandmother’s house. She lives next door to us and had made strawberry shortcakes. Rayne ate one, plus some jello. I tried to relax on the porch, but it wasn’t long until she joined me and wanted to climb over everything. And the clouds rolled in, so it became quite chilly.
I was feeling tired and drained, so we decided to walk home. Which is just a walk across the orchard.
I stopped when I saw this tree. When I was little I had a swing set right under this tree. The flowers are blooming and it smells like my childhood. I can’t describe the smell, but it was nice. Comfort mixed with nostalgia. I wanted to sit under the tree for the rest of the day and read. But I knew Rayne wouldn’t allow it. So I went inside and watched a movie I loved years ago,
A Little Princess.
I loved this movie so much when I was little. I love that it encourages using your imagination and says all girls are princesses. One of my favorite lines from the movie: “I am a princess. All girls are. Even if they live in tiny old attics. Even if they dress in rags, even if they aren’t pretty, or smart, or young. They’re still princesses. All of us.”
I think that’s a wonderful thing to teach little girls. Not only that they are princesses, but we ALL are. It teaches them to have respect for themselves and other girls. We all know how nasty girls can be to each other.
Of course watching it just added to my nostalgia. But that’s okay, Rayne enjoyed watching it too. Especially the parts with the Indian story “The Ramayana”. Maybe it’ll become one of her favorites.
Anyway…Today has been less than great, but not bad at all. Perhaps I’ll sleep better tonight and have more energy tomorrow.